-WHAT is LIFE-

what is life? cant really explain it..
life,is full of misteries, full of happiness, full of sadness......
how's my life since that day huh? happy? sad? or SUCKS???
how am i going to do right now? what is my goal?? where is my motivators?
where they gone huh?
my life is empty right now! am i ? perhaps.. even attached with a lot of activities with classmates, coursemates.. but who is the one i can share, i can trust? where they gone huh? the person i can trust, i can share... where are them?
left me alone here..
life is full of realities.. without advantages, benefits, people will just leave u there.. as long as u still have the advantages that they can get from u, people will always closer and closer to u .. people like $$$.. they are blind with $$$.. no $$$ no talk.. that is what we called "LIFE" right now! stupid man! SUCKS man!!
is strive hard to follow the norms.. i try hard to follow the people.. actually i can still strictly to follow my own principles.. but i didnt.. just because want people to be happy..
once i say "NO", u can see their face.. their expression is "bu shuang", anger on their face... hey hey.. people.. WHAT ABOUT ME huh? when being rejected by people, u feel hurt.. u angry.. but but WHAT ABOUT ME? WHY I CANT DO THE SAME THING JUST LIKE YOU done to me? WHY ??????????????????????????????????????
try hard to think positively!! try hard to start the conversation with newly met people... try hard to adapt to new environment..suffering..hurt... who understand??? i CANT complain because i allow people to treat me like tat.. i allow them to hurt me.. i allow them to do so.. it is all MY FAULT! my fault! coz i am STUPID!!! stupid pepole.!!

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