就这样... ...the reason for not going to watch ... ...

不想和你们再有什么约定... Dont wanna make any commitment / create any memory with u all
因为害怕那又是另一次的失望... becoz afraid of u all again disappointed me
的确,自己始终不能面对再一次的失望... yeah, me myself still cannot handle the same thing(disappointed)
那样真的让自己崩溃... Its really let me down... upset...
很想和你们在一起的人是自己,想逃避你们的又是自己...i m the one who wish to have gathering with u all, but i am also the one who avoid seeing u all, and dont wanna to have any gathering with u all....
我知道不该这样, i know i shouldnt do that, cannot be like tat..
因为会让你们每一个人很不开心...... this is becoz will make you all to feel unhappy
但, 始终不能说服自己...but still, cannot convinced myself dont be so cruel to you all
其实,actually,
一开始成为你们一组人是个错误!错误!!! i shouldnt be one of the group member , it was a wrong decision!!!
很对不起,伤害了你们... I am so sorry that i hurt you all..
在KL, 除了你们,没有任何人比你们更关心自己,更在乎自己......In KL, there is no one who always care for me, loves me except you all...
这一切都是我的错! !!! It is all my fault!!!
不该对你们有太大的期望...i shouldnt have any expectation towards you all.. i shouldnt do tat...(but, i did !!! )
那么自己就不会知道什么叫失望............so that, i wont get to know what is Disappointed!!